First, let me point out that the numbers are not always life and death, nor are they always bad. Your own experience proves it. You did say you look at the time and see a price and take notice of those numbers often.

When a person is facing an unknown, the negative potential is generally what is in focus. One wants to know what dangers there might be.

Just because a number is associated with negative events several times or even often does not mean it is always so associated. It doesn't make the number bad. As a corollary, the sun is always up somewhere on earth on the date of every death that ever was. That does not mean the sun is a bad thing.

It is true there is a reason for everything. However, we sometimes are ignorant about what the reason is.

The number 1 represents new beginnings. The new beginnings can be positive or negative, the number doesn't differentiate, it just represents new beginnings whatever they might be.

The number 19 represents completion of a cycle. The cycle may be positive or negative, the number doesn't differentiate. It just represents completion of cycles whatever those cycles might be.

Your heart number (the vowels number) is a 7, a number of finding answers within. That is where you will find the answers you are looking for. The answers are likely to be different for you than they would be for me or for the next person.

Your birth date number is also a 7. That tells me spiritual and philosophical life questions will pop up again and again as you go along your life path. Study spiritual and philosophical subjects when you can. It will help you get ever more in touch with your inner wisdom.

1+1+9 is 11. The number 11 is a spiritual teacher.