Your name number 1 tells me you are a starter. The number one tends to start things.

You do have the innate ability to finish things. The first letter in your name is a 4 (the ability to focus on a project and build for the future). Your curent Life Cycle number also is a 4. A 4 is very good for getting projects done.

I see your first vowel (heart's desire) is a number 5. The number 5 likes to express its freedom. Sometimes that means changing directions at whim. Perhaps that vibration is what you are mostly identifying with at this time.

It is possible to focus and get things done. The ability is within you.